i don't want, i need.

I haven’t been posting about my boy drama

jaimeleighfairbrother:

because there hasn’t been any boy drama.  There hasn’t been a boy.  There are no boys.  There is nothing.  

I’m not single because I love being single, I’m single because the person I am absolutely, totally and completely mind numbingly retardedly in love with has no desire to love me back.

Blah blah whatever—I’ll deal, I’ll fuck other people and shout to the world that I am fine, sistah.

But I listen to music/watch television/get high/drink/sleep/sleep/get high so I can fall asleep all because I’d rather be comatose than alone.

Just so you know—when I give you my whole I don’t believe in relationships/I’m not into bullshit societal norms what I’m actually saying is if I can’t be with him/goddamnit you at least won’t know I hate it/nobody cuddles quite like my pride.

Now I believe it is time for me to turn on some Kevin Devine while I wallow.  

amen.